I went home for lunch and took a quick nap. Brent let me cuddle with him and junk and it was nice. He even asked why I was all soaked and cold. Then when I left he told me to be safe and Have a good day. I feel a lot better.
I've also realized that I use this blog as a vent for my life and frustrations.
Well, Off to Branch Take over Training.
Monday, April 21, 2014
Friday, April 18, 2014
Well, it finally happened.
I flew off the handle at the guy at work.
He wasn't listening and iterrupting me at every point I tried to make, and of course, that didn't bode well for him. He just kept argunig with me and when I tried to tell him to calm down and listen, he said "You're not my boss, you can't treat me like I'm 2. You can't tell me what I can and can't do at work." to which I replied, "No, but I can try to advise you because you shouldn't treat your elders (Namely Cheri) like they're 2, either. No matter that you're equal in the work place, she's still your elder." Then he just had to go and bring up the fact that I've been having trouble at home and that I can't handle myself and that I'm no more mature than he is, because I cant even handle my home life. That I miss days because I'm sad, then when I come back to work I put it off on everyone else.
That was the icing on the Fucking cake. I can't handle that shit. I blew the fuck up. Started yelling and screaming and spouting off "fuck you's" Which I know I shouldn't have. Because, come on. I'm an adult and I shouldn't lower myself to his level. But goddammit if it wasn't hard to fucking apologize to that asshole. But I did, and even though, after all of the things he's said to me, and how much shit he's started out here, I feel better being the bigger person.
FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKINGFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKERFUCKINGFUCKERFUCKFUCK.
He wasn't listening and iterrupting me at every point I tried to make, and of course, that didn't bode well for him. He just kept argunig with me and when I tried to tell him to calm down and listen, he said "You're not my boss, you can't treat me like I'm 2. You can't tell me what I can and can't do at work." to which I replied, "No, but I can try to advise you because you shouldn't treat your elders (Namely Cheri) like they're 2, either. No matter that you're equal in the work place, she's still your elder." Then he just had to go and bring up the fact that I've been having trouble at home and that I can't handle myself and that I'm no more mature than he is, because I cant even handle my home life. That I miss days because I'm sad, then when I come back to work I put it off on everyone else.
That was the icing on the Fucking cake. I can't handle that shit. I blew the fuck up. Started yelling and screaming and spouting off "fuck you's" Which I know I shouldn't have. Because, come on. I'm an adult and I shouldn't lower myself to his level. But goddammit if it wasn't hard to fucking apologize to that asshole. But I did, and even though, after all of the things he's said to me, and how much shit he's started out here, I feel better being the bigger person.
FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKINGFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKERFUCKINGFUCKERFUCKFUCK.
Monday, April 14, 2014
Wednesday, April 2, 2014
I'm in a cult now.
Hey guys. I wear frilly things and pink now. I guess I'm in a cult. FRILL KILL CULT(if you get that reference.) anyway, thank you to my beautiful friend Mariah, who has helped me because a pretty lady. And to my wonderful boyfriend Brent for giving me back my outlandish confidence.
. . . .Self Entitled People Man.
I can't stand them.You take it upon yourself to break the rules, even when it effects everyone around you. You think they're funny and cute, but really, we all hate you. You're annoying, self centered and rude. You don't understand how things work and you make us all suffer. Please grow up. You bitch and bitch and bitch and expect us to listen and coddle you when you mess something up. Then when we tell you to do your job, you freak out and smart off at us like WE'RE the ones that don't know what we're doing. You take charge of everything around you without another thought about how we all feel. And then you say "Oh, I'm sorry, it's just my nature. I'm just silly" Then laugh it off.
So please, do leave. We'd all be happy you're gone.
Sincerely,
Us hard working, nice people.
So please, do leave. We'd all be happy you're gone.
Sincerely,
Us hard working, nice people.
Monday, March 24, 2014
Today I learned about. . .
The idea of synchronicity is that the conceptual relationship of minds, defined as the relationship between ideas, is intricately structured in its own poetically logical way and gives rise to relationships that are not causal in nature. These relationships can manifest themselves as occurrences that are meaningfully related.
Diagram illustrating concept of synchronicity by CG JungSynchronistic events reveal an underlying pattern, a conceptual framework that encompasses, but is larger than, any of the systems that display the synchronicity. The suggestion of a larger framework is essential to satisfy the definition of synchronicity as originally developed by Carl Gustav Jung.[3]
Jung coined the word to describe what he called "temporally coincident occurrences of acausal events." Jung variously described synchronicity as an "acausal connecting (togetherness) principle", "meaningful coincidence" and "acausal parallelism". Jung introduced the concept as early as the 1920s, but gave a full statement of it only in 1951 in an Eranos lecture[4] and in 1952, published a paper, Synchronizität als ein Prinzip akausaler Zusammenhänge (Synchronicity – An Acausal Connecting Principle),[5] in a volume with a related study by the physicist (and Nobel laureate) Wolfgang Pauli.[6]
It was a principle that Jung felt gave conclusive evidence for his concepts of archetypes and the collective unconscious,[7] in that it was descriptive of a governing dynamic that underlies the whole of human experience and history – social, emotional, psychological, and spiritual. Concurrent events that first appear to be coincidental but later turn out to be causally related are termed incoincident.
Jung believed that many experiences that are coincidences due to chance in terms of causality suggested the manifestation of parallel events or circumstances in terms of meaning, reflecting this governing dynamic.[8]
Even at Jung's presentation of his work on synchronicity in 1951 at an Eranos lecture, his ideas on synchronicity were evolving. Following discussions with both Albert Einstein and Wolfgang Pauli, Jung believed that there were parallels between synchronicity and aspects of relativity theory and quantum mechanics.[9] Jung was transfixed by the idea that life was not a series of random events but rather an expression of a deeper order, which he and Pauli referred to as Unus mundus. This deeper order led to the insights that a person was both embedded in an orderly framework and was the focus of that orderly framework and that the realisation of this was more than just an intellectual exercise, but also had elements of a spiritual awakening. From the religious perspective, synchronicity shares similar characteristics of an "intervention of grace". Jung also believed that in a person's life, synchronicity served a role similar to that of dreams, with the purpose of shifting a person's egocentric conscious thinking to greater wholeness.
A close associate of Jung, Marie-Louise von Franz, stated towards the end of her life that the concept of synchronicity must now be worked on by a new generation of researchers.[10] For example, in the years since the publication of Jung’s work on synchronicity, some writers largely sympathetic to Jung's approach have taken issue with certain aspects of his theory, including the question of how frequently synchronicity occurs.
One of Jung's favourite quotes on synchronicity was from Through the Looking-Glass by Lewis Carroll, in which the White Queen says to Alice: "It's a poor sort of memory that only works backwards".[11][12]
'The rule is, jam to-morrow and jam yesterday – but never jam to-day.'
'It MUST come sometimes to "jam to-day,"' Alice objected.
'No, it can't,' said the Queen. 'It's jam every OTHER day: to-day isn't any OTHER day, you know.'
'I don't understand you,' said Alice. 'It's dreadfully confusing!'
'That's the effect of living backwards,' the Queen said kindly: 'it always makes one a little giddy at first--'
'Living backwards!' Alice repeated in great astonishment. 'I never heard of such a thing!'
'--but there's one great advantage in it, that one's memory works both ways.'
'I'm sure MINE only works one way,' Alice remarked. 'I can't remember things before they happen.'
'It's a poor sort of memory that only works backwards,' the Queen remarked.
Example:
The French writer Émile Deschamps claims in his memoirs that, in 1805, he was treated to some plum pudding by a stranger named Monsieur de Fontgibu. Ten years later, the writer encountered plum pudding on the menu of a Paris restaurant and wanted to order some, but the waiter told him that the last dish had already been served to another customer, who turned out to be de Fontgibu. Many years later, in 1832, Deschamps was at a dinner and once again ordered plum pudding. He recalled the earlier incident and told his friends that only de Fontgibu was missing to make the setting complete – and in the same instant, the now senile de Fontgibu entered the room
Diagram illustrating concept of synchronicity by CG JungSynchronistic events reveal an underlying pattern, a conceptual framework that encompasses, but is larger than, any of the systems that display the synchronicity. The suggestion of a larger framework is essential to satisfy the definition of synchronicity as originally developed by Carl Gustav Jung.[3]
Jung coined the word to describe what he called "temporally coincident occurrences of acausal events." Jung variously described synchronicity as an "acausal connecting (togetherness) principle", "meaningful coincidence" and "acausal parallelism". Jung introduced the concept as early as the 1920s, but gave a full statement of it only in 1951 in an Eranos lecture[4] and in 1952, published a paper, Synchronizität als ein Prinzip akausaler Zusammenhänge (Synchronicity – An Acausal Connecting Principle),[5] in a volume with a related study by the physicist (and Nobel laureate) Wolfgang Pauli.[6]
It was a principle that Jung felt gave conclusive evidence for his concepts of archetypes and the collective unconscious,[7] in that it was descriptive of a governing dynamic that underlies the whole of human experience and history – social, emotional, psychological, and spiritual. Concurrent events that first appear to be coincidental but later turn out to be causally related are termed incoincident.
Jung believed that many experiences that are coincidences due to chance in terms of causality suggested the manifestation of parallel events or circumstances in terms of meaning, reflecting this governing dynamic.[8]
Even at Jung's presentation of his work on synchronicity in 1951 at an Eranos lecture, his ideas on synchronicity were evolving. Following discussions with both Albert Einstein and Wolfgang Pauli, Jung believed that there were parallels between synchronicity and aspects of relativity theory and quantum mechanics.[9] Jung was transfixed by the idea that life was not a series of random events but rather an expression of a deeper order, which he and Pauli referred to as Unus mundus. This deeper order led to the insights that a person was both embedded in an orderly framework and was the focus of that orderly framework and that the realisation of this was more than just an intellectual exercise, but also had elements of a spiritual awakening. From the religious perspective, synchronicity shares similar characteristics of an "intervention of grace". Jung also believed that in a person's life, synchronicity served a role similar to that of dreams, with the purpose of shifting a person's egocentric conscious thinking to greater wholeness.
A close associate of Jung, Marie-Louise von Franz, stated towards the end of her life that the concept of synchronicity must now be worked on by a new generation of researchers.[10] For example, in the years since the publication of Jung’s work on synchronicity, some writers largely sympathetic to Jung's approach have taken issue with certain aspects of his theory, including the question of how frequently synchronicity occurs.
One of Jung's favourite quotes on synchronicity was from Through the Looking-Glass by Lewis Carroll, in which the White Queen says to Alice: "It's a poor sort of memory that only works backwards".[11][12]
'The rule is, jam to-morrow and jam yesterday – but never jam to-day.'
'It MUST come sometimes to "jam to-day,"' Alice objected.
'No, it can't,' said the Queen. 'It's jam every OTHER day: to-day isn't any OTHER day, you know.'
'I don't understand you,' said Alice. 'It's dreadfully confusing!'
'That's the effect of living backwards,' the Queen said kindly: 'it always makes one a little giddy at first--'
'Living backwards!' Alice repeated in great astonishment. 'I never heard of such a thing!'
'--but there's one great advantage in it, that one's memory works both ways.'
'I'm sure MINE only works one way,' Alice remarked. 'I can't remember things before they happen.'
'It's a poor sort of memory that only works backwards,' the Queen remarked.
Example:
The French writer Émile Deschamps claims in his memoirs that, in 1805, he was treated to some plum pudding by a stranger named Monsieur de Fontgibu. Ten years later, the writer encountered plum pudding on the menu of a Paris restaurant and wanted to order some, but the waiter told him that the last dish had already been served to another customer, who turned out to be de Fontgibu. Many years later, in 1832, Deschamps was at a dinner and once again ordered plum pudding. He recalled the earlier incident and told his friends that only de Fontgibu was missing to make the setting complete – and in the same instant, the now senile de Fontgibu entered the room
Sunday, March 23, 2014
Oklahoma Lolita ya'll.
So, I was so graciously invited to attend a Lolita Fashion meetup by a very good friend of mine, Miss Mariah. We got all gussied up, went so Sushi Train and stuffed our faces with other pretties in poofy dresses, then headed for the biggest shopping mall in town, Woodland Hills Mall.
Once there, we were, of course, bombarded by people asking questions like, "Why do you wear that?" or "Are you in a play???"
To which we respond, "No, we're in the circus, would you like to buy a ticket?"
Once there, we were, of course, bombarded by people asking questions like, "Why do you wear that?" or "Are you in a play???"
To which we respond, "No, we're in the circus, would you like to buy a ticket?"
Thursday, March 20, 2014
Now using more of the house than before!
So, we've finally started working on the other half of the house! We now have a guest room, game room and reading room. We've gained 2 nests and room divider (seeing as how we don't really have walls.) We realised that one of the main reasons we've been at each others throats, is that we've been depressed with our state of living. We've only been utilizing half of the space that we live in and the other half has been filled with depressing boxes, sheets covering furniture and piles of things. We hadn't really moved in, or gotten comfortable with living with each other. Now that things are falling in to place, we're a lot happier, healthier and it's easier to spend more time together in our home.
Saturday, March 8, 2014
Life changes
So, after this week I think I'm going to delete my Facebook and load everything worth seeing on to this blog. I'm changing my diet and my outlook on life as well. I hope I will have your continued support in these changes and I hope that this blog will actuall be seen and be used as my main form of social networking, as much as I hate that word.
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